slightly scary

japan!




its so soon!!!


and i am freaking out slightly.


about it all.






mainly the visa thing.


and trying to see everyone before i go.



and do little things like pack etc


and clean up my flat
(which, at this stage will take me WEEKS).




i'm up early today!!

i set 3 alarms instead of the usual two.


and i set them early.

just incase i slept in.





i STILL havent made a trip to the supermarket.

so for breakfast again i am enjoying a delightful cup of water.



i could go to the supermarket as we speak.

but that would just be too practical.




i cant keep these eyes of mine open.



how am i going to stay awake for the 9hours of my shiiiift.
and then
party!!!



thats what id like to know....





i finally put some petrol in my car yest.

poor rufus had been without it for too long.





also,
in the last 35 mins
i have decided


that

somethings are just not worth thinking of.



even if it hurts to not think about it.




or if it hurts once you remember.






all in all


thoughts are gone.


for now atleast.





AHSHGHJDGLJJJDLSKX!

except they so arent!!


even now i just stopped writing.


and it was in the back of my mind.







this is going to be much harder than i thought.....