maybe a clarification

me
not wanting to go to japan
was a strong feeling i had.

there was so much confusion
because i was confused.

are you part of the reason i find it hard to leave?

yes.
but only a part.


it was hard for me to imagine myself in a foreign land

when i didnt really know who myself was.



various things and actions cluttered my mind.
and i have been thinking and thinking
trying to de-clutter.


now.
well, recently.
i feel maybe i know myself more.

and i want to go to japan.
wholeheartedly.


although there is no doubt i will miss you.


see see.
no full reason.

so now all is clearer?

right....?



exam tomorrow.
freakking me out

zero time. zero time.


remind me to never drink again.

how can things just disappear from life.

regrets?
i dont think so....


tell me what happened
for i am confused.

tres
tres
tres
confused.


happy nice time?
always.




..........'hang out again?'