happy.

i am so happy.



that i am sad.







this probably makes no sense...



but to me it does.













osaka has made me feel so comfortable.





(apart from the death weather, which is unbearable.....)



and the thought of leaving it all behind in a few months is heart wrenching.

i dont know if ill be able to do it.....



i wrote this a while ago,
and saved it to my drafts.
as i hadnt much time.


my life has become very up and down. in terms of my feelings.




stuff has happened here,

and some stuff back in nz with my family.

(and also some stuff with my friends)




and so i now feel that what seemed like happiness. real happiness,
is slowly,
but ever so surely,

turning into unhappiness.