this evening

this evening.


i went to a gig.

at the gig were two artists.
jaaja.
and okazawa jun.

they are great.


i returned home promptly after the gig finished.
as i wasnt feeling the best.


rose stayed.


i come home.
and do some things.

like watch an episode of a drama.

then rose calls me...


come to an izakaya.
i met these guys from tokyo.
she says.


i go. even though its two in the morning.


i arrive, and one of them was sleeping.
slash. too drunk to function.

we drink. and have fun.


one of them was kind enough to walk me home.

the one who had been sleeping the whole time i was there.
it was quite funny really.


he was very gentleman like. and wouldnt allow me to walk home alone.
even though he was staying in the opposite direction.



it makes me happy to think that there are nice people out there.

happy.

i am so happy.



that i am sad.







this probably makes no sense...



but to me it does.













osaka has made me feel so comfortable.





(apart from the death weather, which is unbearable.....)



and the thought of leaving it all behind in a few months is heart wrenching.

i dont know if ill be able to do it.....



i wrote this a while ago,
and saved it to my drafts.
as i hadnt much time.


my life has become very up and down. in terms of my feelings.




stuff has happened here,

and some stuff back in nz with my family.

(and also some stuff with my friends)




and so i now feel that what seemed like happiness. real happiness,
is slowly,
but ever so surely,

turning into unhappiness.