a new post you say?

why ok....


today is the LAST day of work here at sanosaka for everyone who lives in the dorms.

although for me, that was yesterday.



today i have a holiday. wheeee. i am ment to be boarding. (in my carebear outfit). but i cant be bothered.


i cant believe how quickly time has flown by. its actually crazy to think that it was over 3months ago i came here.


what shall i do next????

i am sad

but also extremely angry at myself.


i lost my february pay.

almost directly after recieving it.



i have a feeling that its burning in the hakuba rubbish dump by now.
as some one may have mistaken it for rubbish.


as i left it on the floor in my friends room.



and guess how much it was? $1400.


do you know how much i could have purchased with that.
or how many hours of karaoke.
i could have hired a personal chef for a whee while to create me vegetarian food.


but mainly, i was going to
a) buy a computer - very needed
b) get my hair straightened
c) buy an slr - becasue ive wanted one for so so so long
d) get a tattoo
e) etc etc etc



i know its stupid to keep thinking of these things.

but its just so hard.


it also doesnt feel real.

like, who is stupid enough to lose that amount of money!



























me.

pain

in my neck.

as in.

its difficult to move.

as we speak, i am drugged up on pain killers. so it seems like im healed.


but i know in a few hours this will wear off.

like it has many times.

but i only have one pill left. what will i do afterwards??

suffer in pain??

i do not look foward to this.



i left work early today, because i litteraly couldnt move. and had a nice sleep.
that, plus the fact that i slept for over 10hours last night (first time in SO long),

means that i am not tired now.


i talked to max today.
(hi max!!!)


although we had to overcome many technical issues,
it was so nice to talk to nz life.


my room mate is being a bitch again.
and to be a hundred percent honest, i actually cant handle her bitchy-ness.

she hates a different person ever day.

and recently that person seems to have been me.


at first i was sad.
then i was angry.
and now im just over it.


i have made so much effort.
now,
i will just be civil.

and not stoop to her level.



luckily hiromi and megumis room is like a second home to me!



in recent times, not much has happened.


and i dont know what ive talked of.


but at tracks-the local bar



there was a folk night,

with four bands. each one different to the next.
i miss this type of music.

there was also a man, who was selling his homecooked organic vegetarian curry. with brown rice.

i miss this. alot. alot.
it was so amazing!


the fist artist up was yoshito. (the one who left his cd).
and he remembered me, and came and talked to me!!!
he also gave me his number and told me to call him when i was in nagoya.

so in! (haha. jokes)


next band was a duo. called pass. (i think).
and they were so so so so so amazing!!

their music was so gentle and beautiful.
and the guys voice was truely undescribable.

the had a song called green eye fish gone.
and i talked to his girlfriend about the song title.


i wanted more than anything to buy their cd. but they dont have one. they dont even have a website. or a myspace page. or anything.

but he did give me his email. so that i can find out when i can be amazed again.


the next is a guy called jun.
he is usually in a band called the beers.

he seems quite shy and harmless when he is not performing.

but when he starts, he is crazy, crazy.

and amazing.

i got his cd. and im so so happy.
now we sing along to his music always.


the main act of the evening was jaaja.

they were great!! they had these amazing hand sculpted animal masks. and they played a variety of instruments.
they own a cafe.
and offered to let me and hiromi stay when we visit nagoya!


so doing it.