i wonder who will read this...

my blog has slowly
slowly
slowly
sunken to the ground. maybe soon i will pick it back up.


and all will be merry.


right now.
things arent so.

i have lots of words to write in a day and a half.
but i cant express them.
i wish i could thing them, and they would be expressed on a page for me.



in better news.

darling comes in 10days





oh how ive waited to hug him.
to kiss him.
just to be with him

things are...

..better. slightly.

well. alot really.
i have stopped being so down. and now i am dealing with my auckland life.


contact with bf is everyday.
i guess he was having difficulty with it just like me.
but now we message and skype everyday...
and it makes me so happy to hear from him.
although, sometimes, it is unbearable to be parted from him.



i finally got internet at my house today!!!!!!!!!!! one month later.
having no internet for a month, is like, well. horrible?



uni is average. hard. really really hard. i have so much due already. and im way behind.... with the insane readings that my courses have allocated me.

but.

soon, i will be on top of it. (i hope).

i hardly see anyone, because transport is inconvenient.. and.
because. maybe i guess part of the reason is that i feel like friendships have changed slightly...

which isnt so great. but. yeah.


im still unemployed. which is again, not so great.
but im looking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




and, im sure you know. about the japan earthquake/tsunami/nuclear problem.....
its shit. but things happen.
i wish that they wouldnt. but they do.

thank you to everyone who contacted me to see if i was ok. and if my friends and bf and host family were ok.
i really appreciate it. and it touched my heart.


there are also at the moment, fundraising events happening around the university,
for example, tanabata festival, sausage sizzle, film evening, and selling mini crane badges.

so. please. get involved.


and help all the japanese people who are left with nothing after the recent disaster.



thanks.







well, homework calls.
i shall do it. and be bored.

auckland life.

im back in nz, and its less than ideal.


i hate university.

i have no job, therefore no money.

im stuck at home.

i have horrible uni hours.

my bf in japan does not contact me.
nor does he understand how hard it is to be seperated from him.



i hate it.


i want to go back.



















































i want to be happy.

visit to nz

my visit to nz has been nice.
weird.

but nice.


i think of japan as home now.

and i cant wait to go back there!!!!!!!!!!!!

not long now.
im in the gold coast transit lounge.
with my lack of duty free alcohol that i purchased at the auckland airport.


i am SO angry at them.
them being customs people.

no one informed me of this.


how was i supposed to buy nz made alcohol as a gift when they dont sell it at the japan airport.

me.
equals.
boo face girl.


and because i am so sleepy because i slept for half an hour as i spent the fun time with lili last night, it made me cry and cry and cry.


infront of everybody. booo face.
i should probs say red face.


not fun.


but what evs.

not like i spent all my money on it or anything.






fuckers.
actually.

2 week only special!!!

thats right.

me.

in nz.

for two weeks only!!!!!!!

from the 23rd of november till the 5th of december.
free your calenders dearys!!! because i want to see you!!!

eeep. im so excited. and also kindof nervous.......
because its been a whole year since ive been in nz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and japan just feels so normal to me.
people ask me questions about some things back home. for example, what we do in certain situations, or what we say. and i cant think of an answer.
or the right answer.
because im so used to the japanese way of living now.


me being clean and tidy is probably something that will come as a shock to most of you. me also. but it feels so normal now.

i definately have the biggest respect for housewives now.
i didnt really think they did much. and i thought they had it quite easy.

but its so so so not.


i suppose because i work a full time job. a part time teaching job. and am like a house wife too.
it seems harder than just being a house wife.

but man.

i do now feel though, that some day i will make a good wife. (not house wife). or maybe house wife.

becuase japan has trained me well.


i do however hate the fact that men just expect women to do all the cleaning and cooking. my food isnt always the most delicious. and my cleaning isnt always thorough. but. the house is tidy. and there is food available. bf says that it doesnt matter, as long as i make it with my heart.


tehehe.



i have created another blog. called my darling is japanese.
about my relationship. with a japanese boy.

its just in the starting stages.
but if you do have time. please look.



mydarlingisjapanese.blogspot.com




i will be sad to leave him. for two weeks when i go back to nz.
i guess it will be good prep for when i come back to nz on a more permanent basis in feb.

but its ok. because he will come.

and that is good.


tommy is thinking about going back to sweden (flatmate)
which is sad.

but he will go after i leave. so its not like i will miss him.
but japan definately will.


rose has finished up at nambaya. (our work). so shifts are lonely. and im jealous of her free time. her free life style.


idealy, i would like to take some time off work too. but i cant because i have to save some money to go back to nz with.
day by day, the amount i am able to take decreases significantly. because i buy unneccessary shit.

like getting my hair done. and buying household items like toilet paper and room spray.


i also have to pay my rent before i go. and im sure i will be heading out as its the last week and a bit for rose in japan.



i dont have my passport. and am freaking out.
i sent away for a new one. so i would be able to come back into japan.
but complications with my passport photo. and blah. means that it still hasnt come.


and


im


freaking


out.



but only slightly.


hmmmm.
what else.

i performed a proper live/gig. with rose and some others at my work.
it was a festival. of various people (customers and staff singing\performing....)

it didnt go as badly as i thought maybe it would......
sometimes when i hear it, it sounds good. sometimes it sounds bad.

so i dont know what to think.

although rose and i did receive just over 100$ each in tips!!!!!!!!!!!!
isnt that amazing. i was so stunned/shocked.

i was just happy to have fun.


friends came. and it was a glorious occasion.

rose and i recently also became friends with some customers. who are in their 20's and are musician/host people.
they are extremely funny and cool and lovely people. so im glad we are friends with them now!!



i am feeling like shit atm. because i am sick. AGAIN.

i actually cant believe how much i have been sick in the last two months.
all various things.
its boooooo.



but i guess it cant be helped.


im soooo looking foward to relaxing in nz. not having to go to work. or anything.


i hope my phones still work when i go back....
well.
my 021 charger is broken.
and i dont know if my 027 will work if i havent used it in a year.,....
hmmmm.



i dont even know if these still exist in nz??!!? im sure much has changed.

it will be weird to not have a bike. or trains that are everywhere and come extremely frequently.
and to have no car.

how will i survive??

auckland is such an inconvenient city.




booo you auckland.

boooooo you.



what else what else.

hmm. i talked to max. and hannah last night.
they are in uchret (is this how you spell???) together right now.
and lola too.


it seems like fun


to have friends. who speak english. and who know you. and who are from nz.

and all these other things.


yeah.


i have to leave for work in an hour. and i am exhausted.
actually.
i just got home from my english teaching job.
and it was so stressful. i had this 54y.o. crazy loud twitchy japanese guy.
who came and prepared 105 topics to talk about.


i was like.

w


t


f



but i guess it was alright.
it think of the money.....
yes.


he told me that when he goes to the toilet, he uses a whole roll of toilet paper. becuase its messy. he says.




is this not tmi???????????????

i mean.
i always say tmi. but to my friends right.

not to your teacher. who you met 15mins ago.



anyways. its over. and i am happy. but also very tired. because of me being sick.



so ill go.


but ill see you soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

x

having his arm wrapped around me,

is unbelievable warmth.



and when its not there.
there is an emptiness.



right now i am sick.
i havnt gone to work since wedns last week.
apart from friday. when i worked for 2.5hours. but most of that was me cry and having breakdowns

a) because my body was so exhausted.
and
b) because it was really busy,i had no energy. as i hadnt eaten in two days.
and i felt like throwing up, but i couldnt.

so all up, it was a great shift.


rose and bf are being especially good to me.
i am very lucky to hvae them both.



thank you rose.
and bf.




battery dying.


until next time


x

today is thursday.

i have a holiday from work.

which is A+
but i wish i had slightly more.

recently i have started at 5pm on mondays and tuesdays, because there have been no staff.
and also, it is just me and master, (as opposed to me, master and one other staff member), so the work load is a whole bunch more intense. and it also means i dont get to finish till 2am.
because there is no one else there.


the other days, i start at 6, and finish whenever.
sometimes i can leave early.
and its nice.


i am just trying really hard to save money so that my plan (not mentionable at this stage) can come into effect.
its not going so well.
and walking outside, i feel i must purchase something.
and today i spent 200 dollars i dont have (potentially more! gasp).

although, i did buy some new underwear. which is more than i would pay back home.
as there was no sale.
and i needed a new bra.

the lady measured me, and still brought me the completely wrong sized bra 3 times.
but in the end. i got one that i feel so happy in.
and its pink. and has cute hearts on it.

tehehe.

also made vegetarian burritos today.
it cost me a bomb, due to foreign ingredients.
but oh,
so,
worth it.


it made me miss vege nachos with han. (which was a regular thing back in nz before i left....)

my friend masa, who is from gifu, but lives in nagoya, recently got back from a half year exchange trip to australia.
on saturday, he came to osaka to visit.
it was so good to see him again!!!!!

tomorrow i will meet a girl, who also did the same thing with me last winter at a ski resort. we were in the same prefecture. but never met.
we emailed each other. and complained about how silly things were sometimes.

anyways, tomorrow she will come to osaka!
and i will go to meet her.

what else....
my mum sent my ecezma cream in the post last week. and it still hasnt come.

which is infuriating. because....
my hands are actually in ruins from work.
i cant really do anything.

pick up things, pull up my stockings (which i wear everyday), open cans or things like that.
messaging on my phone hurts too.

which is boooo.


so, hopefully it comes soon.


someone close to me is feeling very down at the moment. how do we think i can cheer this person up?
i think im doing everything i can to be supportive, and a good person.

but i would love to hear what you think could work.....


and in saying that,
i must go.


but more soon


x

today is monday

i went to bed quite late last night. well this morning. at about 5am.

i talked to han on skype. (again...)
i do this very regularly, and it makes me happyyyyyy.


i was also watching a video with my flatmate tommy, and his friend krishna.
it was about japanese hosts.
it was very very interesting.

i dont know what i think of them any more.

(also, when i say video, i mean a documentary)

i guess a foreigners perspective is different from a japanese persons anyways.
as japanese people grow up seeing them on the streets all the time.

anyways,
i highly recommend you watch it.
if you have the time.


today i start work at 5. boo.
this means i have to leave at 4.20.

which is soon.
as now is 3.45

i made curry for dinner.....
but i cant eat it
( i dont want to eat it?)
so i made it with meat.


bf still isnt home from work.


but he just called to say he will be home soon.

so. i best be off to prepare.



ciao.

x

ive decided to try make a better go at this

and when i say this.
i mean my blog.

updating my life. so that you can know.
and so that i wont forget.


so,
you can look foward to something to read, especially when exams are coming up in a few months.
plus lots of exciting assignments.


ok.

so,
big news number one: i am staying in japan officially till the end of feb next year. im so super excited. and happy. that my living in japan dream doesnt have to end just yet. but also sad. because it means i wont be able to see your pretty faces until longer away. booo.

big news number two: my cousin just had her second baby. a gorgeous little girl named mckenzie. on monday, very close to the tuesday boarder. i skyped them the other day. and she is just so little. and tiny. and makes me what babies. but only babies to play with for now.

news number three: mickey is in japan!!! he came on the 21st. and we hung out with him for the first time in over 10months yesterday. it was so weird and crazy. and reminded me of nz life. and semi maybe of me. well. the me i used to be before being wrapped up in this japanese world.

thing i would like to say four: living with my bf (still feels weird to write that), is making life very happy. although its not always picture perfect, its generally what a dream feels like. he is so easy to live with. and puts up with my crazy mood swings etc. have also become a very tidy clean person since living with him. our apartment is so lovely and neat and clean. that i want to keep it that way, and have nothing out of place. i never thought id say that i like doing the cooking and cleaning. yesterday we had our first major misunderstanding. which sucked. and i cried. but. its all ok now. and it was over a really silly thing.

point five: i hate that time of the month. because in recent months, it had made me become a unstable blabbering insecure girl. which is so not me.




cant keep eyes open. 4.30 am. sleeep.


x




p.s. welocme to my new followers....

hello.

since the last time i wrote.

i have reached the age of 22.
i am no longer 21.

whenever i have a birthday, i can never distinguish between the different ages...

it was weird to not spend the day with my friends. or see my friends.
when i say friends, i mean my auckland friends. my nz friends.
i have friends in j-pan. obviously.
but its not the same.

i spent the hours leading up to my birthday on a date.
i then had lots to drink.
i woke up on my bday, with a headache. and it was so hot, i almost died.

i went to the train station to pick up nanae (who came from tokyo to celebrate my bday with me), and i died.

then i lay around. doing practically nothing. due to the heat.

i talked to liam on skype for a bit. and he made me feel bad.
for recent activities i had partaken in. (which, in my defence, were completely allowable!)

pierre taught me how to make french crepes.

i went to the supermarket.

had a shower. and got ready to start thhe real celebrations.
yay!

firstly i had a vegetarian pot luck dinner at the guesthouse.
lots of people came. i was so happy!!!
rose, nanae, hiromi, katrina, jess, yumi, shota, ayumi, ayaka, yuuki, manami, ena etc

and it was so fun. and delicious.
i recieved lots of cakes.
so, needless to say i was happy.

ryutaro came and brought me a cake, although he couldnt stay, as he had work.
i was shocked. and so happy that he did that for me.

we then headed off to a sweet little bar called chikaichi. where everything is 200yen!!!
a real bargain.
and many more people joined us there.
yoshi, yoko, yuzo, yusuke, sam, tommy etc

which made me more happy.

i also found out that i share the same birthday with this guy who i met when i first arrived in osaka and went to that bar.
he celebrated his bday there too.
we had a photo together.
i like him.
he is quite sarcastic.
its nice.


then, we went out to amemura (アメ村), to a club called lunar.
the music was quite hard core. and rock/punk based. in a not so good way.
but because i had already paid the cover charge, i didnt want to leave.

everyone else did. they went to karaoke.
except my new friend katrina.
(katrina and jess are from canada. and super amazing!! they bought me shots all night, to keep me in good form on my bday).
me and katrina continued to party. we went to the local hangout spot with out convinient store alcohol. then went to this little bar called mojo.
mojo has (had) the most amazing bar tender called cherry boy.
he is no longer there. i found out when i went there, and he wasnt.
booooooo

we went back to the hangout spot, its called triangle park (三角公園) btw, and had some more drinks. we me these guys. they were pretty fun.

katrina and i headed home. we walked past subway, hoping it would be open at 6am.
no such luck.

we get on the subway (haha) to go home, and both of us fall asleep. we miss our stop.
and end up in i have no idea where.
we treck back. and go on a mad hunt for subway. who knew it would be so so so so so hot at 7.30 am.
in the tennoji area, i knew there was a subway store somewhere underground.
the underground area is huge!
after a long struggle. we found it.

and let me tell you,
it was DEFINATELY worth the wait.

we stumble home. and i instantly sleep.

katrina the trooper wakes up a few hours later and heads off for some travel to kobe.
while jess slept.
amazing, is she not?

then on saturday night, yusuke invited me to his for a bbq. i went. because i was happy to have the invite. even though, i knew minimal people. and i am incredibly shy around people i dont know.
sunday, i went to osaka castle with nanae. and i died of heat.
actually.

tuesday, kenji came from tokyo to visit me!!!
he hitch hiked from tokyo to kyoto. i couldnt believe it when he told me.

actually.

he has gone to nz!!!!!!
be friends with him. (on fb is good. he is my friend. search him!)

and show him a good time around nz....
thanks.


on love related issues in my life:

a while ago. i was seeing this guy. it was nice. i was happy. then i wasnt so happy. and things kindof ended.
i started seeing this other guy. on a completely casual basis. it was just twice. to dull the pain.

now.
i have (insert current bf's name here).
he is so nice. and lovely. and cute. and sweet.
its a weird feeling to actually be in a completely official relationship!

and because its so official, i feel myself wanting to do things i would usually not even consider.

big news. in the next few days i am moving in with him!
i am quite nervous. and all that.
it is very soon.
verrrrry very.

i have decided i can no longer live at the guesthouse anymore.

bf's flatmate (-my soon to be flatmate!!!!), is this amazingly hilarious sweedish guy. i can literally spend all day just laughing at him. (with him??)
bf's younger brother is also here. he recently moved to osaka. so is staying here till he gets estsablished.
bf's younger brother's gf is also here.

so in an apartment with two rooms, there are 5people. (well there will be in a few days time......)
teheheee.

but im so excited. as well as a little nervous.

also, my job at the standing bar was a 3min bike ride from my house. now it will be a 30min bike ride.
i must buy a bike. as the bike im using isnt mine

so

i must buy

a new bike.

yep. so, thats lifee.

last night was liams 21st.
im slightly cut i couldnt make it.

(i just fell asleep on the floor for a bit. time to wrap things up i feel. yes.)

i am in the lounge. and bf is sleeping in his room. i can hear him snoring from here.
its going to be a good nextg few months.....


there are probably a million other things i have to say.
but my brain doesnt work.



OH.
bfs younger brother is THEE most AMAZING cook. ever.


EVER.

he makes the most delicious vege meals for me.



ohh, yeah.

today rose and i went to have lunch with guy she met a while ago who is a friend of a friend.
his friend came too.
they drove us to nara (a different city). to this restaurant. which grew its own vegetables.
so. they asumed, it was good for a vegetarian.
not so much.
still japan.
still bits of meat in everything.
but it was delicious.

there was also this drink i had.
i read the first line
and it says green grapes.
dont bother to read the second line, as i love white grape juice.

drink it. and iots disgusting.
actually.


the second line says 'and vinegar'.

like, wtf right.

anyways, these two guys were pretty awesome. and we had a very open conversation. about things that japanese people dont usually talk about.

yes. so. sleep time. yay.

goodnight poppits.

x

this evening

this evening.


i went to a gig.

at the gig were two artists.
jaaja.
and okazawa jun.

they are great.


i returned home promptly after the gig finished.
as i wasnt feeling the best.


rose stayed.


i come home.
and do some things.

like watch an episode of a drama.

then rose calls me...


come to an izakaya.
i met these guys from tokyo.
she says.


i go. even though its two in the morning.


i arrive, and one of them was sleeping.
slash. too drunk to function.

we drink. and have fun.


one of them was kind enough to walk me home.

the one who had been sleeping the whole time i was there.
it was quite funny really.


he was very gentleman like. and wouldnt allow me to walk home alone.
even though he was staying in the opposite direction.



it makes me happy to think that there are nice people out there.

happy.

i am so happy.



that i am sad.







this probably makes no sense...



but to me it does.













osaka has made me feel so comfortable.





(apart from the death weather, which is unbearable.....)



and the thought of leaving it all behind in a few months is heart wrenching.

i dont know if ill be able to do it.....



i wrote this a while ago,
and saved it to my drafts.
as i hadnt much time.


my life has become very up and down. in terms of my feelings.




stuff has happened here,

and some stuff back in nz with my family.

(and also some stuff with my friends)




and so i now feel that what seemed like happiness. real happiness,
is slowly,
but ever so surely,

turning into unhappiness.

an update

hello.

tis been a long time since i have updated here.

life has been somewhat busy recently.



i am loving osaka.

i cant tell whether its because i have a friend here. or whether the people are nicer.

i have a feeling its a mixture of the two....



it is so hot. like death.

i am working at various places. and meeting various people.



i am cleaning the guest house i am staying at.
that is a few hours everyday.

i am officially an english teacher.
which is a crazy strange thought...

i like the lessons where i dont have to plan.

on thursday, my lessons were both private. and my boss told me they wanted to learn about specific things.
it was so hard to come up with a lesson. especially using all the formal terms etc.
one of the lessons was on tense. so i focused on the past tense.
explaining the difference between past, past progressive, past perfect and past perfect progressive is ridiculous.
to a person who doesnt have the best english.

and answering their questions of 'why??' is so confusing.

because im not a hundred percent of why myself.

today, i had two lessons again. but no requirements.
prior to work starting, i felt really nervous. like i couldnt do it. that i didnt want to do it.
but when i got there it was fine.


i like the lack of planning. and the flexibility.


although, sometimes, i think my life would be easier if there was a curriculum.

but its fine.
i am smiling after todays lesson. so its good.


although, that could be to do with other things......

i am also employed at an eikaiwa. but i dislike it.
alot. there are many reasons.
but i semi feel bad for not telling them i dont want to work there. so i cant.
instead, i ignore their calls.

i am a bad employee. (but only here).


my other job. the funnest job.
is working at a standing bar, in the slums of japan.
its so fun!
the people are friendly, master is so generous, we recently got a kitten

i work 5nights a week, from 6pm till about 2am.
so its like a full time job.

but its good. a good job.
and i am happy.


i have met lovely people. so its good.


all is good.


i am continuing to explore on bicycle. and have adventures in the middle of the night after work. so its good. its happy.

happy happy happy

good good good




i dont want to go home!

a bicycle

i have always been afraid of bicycles.

they go too fast.

and you can get hurt if you fall off.




so i have avoided them. pretty much my whole life.


one time, at a camp, we went riding bikes.
this is the only memory i have of me and bicycles.


i dont like going down hills.
and we were. and i had a panic attack.


since then....
havent been on one



recently, (as stated in one of my earlier posts), i used my friends bike to go to the supermarket.

and i was surprised i could do it!!!!

although, not very well.


since i have come to osaka, i have borrowed peoples bikes. and travelled many places (with rose ofcourse) she is like my tour guide.


riding a bike is soo fun.

but if any form of object comes near me, i lose my balance, and have to start again.


yesterday, we even rode in the rain.


riding a bike, holding an umbrella is quite difficult.
and i must admit. my body is slightly sore.

just legs, arms and bottom though. tehehee.



also, yesterday, i did something magical with my hair. and i feel great.

i am also having lots of response from job applications.




so i am in a great place right now.



happy happy.


much happier than i was in tokyo.




so its good. i think.




bye!!!!

おはよう！！！

i have officially arrived in osaka.



after a long, slightly uncomfortable bus ride.



its very hot.

i am sweaty. and sleepy.



and.
rose is at work.


until 1am!


so no play time today :(

she gave me excellent directions to the guesthouse.


she is magical.


i miss tokyo already. just a bit though.
mainly its people.

the people i knew.


not the ones i didnt...........



hmmm.


yes. well.


for now thats it.

more later perhaps.

hi, shunsuke

is a person i have been listening to recently.

(since last night infact...)



his music is so nice.
and unlike the crap you hear on the radio these days

although, dont get me wrong.


not all of its crap.




it made me remember what i had forgotten,
about supporting people who love music.


and artists who actually want to produce sweet sweet sounds without the need for fame and moneys.



today i saw ken-chan

he is so lovely.


his gf worked with my flatmate in auckland.

and so i met him through her.


when i was for leaving for japan last november,
he left work during the day to come see how i was (packing up my room in my old flat) and to say goodbye.


i was actually so touched.


today i made him lunch.

he is going to skate around tokyo.



i am jealous of his skating ability.
and his japanese speaking ability.
(he is japanese after all...)


he offered to help me out with so many things.
like getting my luggaged organised, and finding a temporary job agency.



today was quite hot. so i went to the convenient store to buy an ice cream.
(although they didnt have the one i wanted....)


but now i want another one.

i totally cant go back there within the same hour....
sigh.


osaka move is coming closer and closer.

excited!!! but nervous!


eeeeep.



hope your well kittens
x

i went to the cinema

with なおみchan today.

i cant believe how expensive it is here!!!


it was almost 30 dollars!!!!


thirty.

can you believe it.


it was in chiba. in this amazingly massive shopping mall. bigger than sylvia park.
but with out the supermarkets.
i couldnt believe my eyes!

it was mega fun though.
but also spent too much..
wahh.


the other night, i went to niichan-tachis new house.
to watch the soccer. except the nz game wasnt on tv here!

the italian game was.

unfortunately, nz didnt get through.

but they did SO well to not lose any games. and to not have lots of goals against them etc etc!!!!!!!


but

nippon won
(japan)


yayayay!!!!!!!!

and so next tuesday they will play again.


niichan-tachis new place is AMAZING. the rooftop (which is all theres) is like the size of a foodtown.

its crazy.



so im going to osaka soon.

im semi angry. as the landlord was supposed to refund some of my rent. but isnt. grrr.
so i lose like 150dollars. not cool.

im very nervous.

but excited.


jay, the american guy here has everybody that walks into the living room watch magic tricks on youtube.


kenji is playing the piano.
he told me he couldnt play.
but he can.


and it sounds nice.


today i had a mango soy latte.
and it was delicious.
so i thought to myself.
im going to make it at home.

i go to the only supermarket (out of atleast 5) in asakusa that sells mango juice. and they have none!!!
so i settled for peach.
but its not the same.

hmmm.


tomorrow i will maybe go to a place that sells insanely cheap veges.
im tres excited.


because i am lacking those atm...

booo.

hmm. what else can i say....

not much else is new.

maybe.


i want a skateboard.

and strawberryblonde hair.

checklist

resign from current job: check

tell the landlord that i am leaving earlier than planned: check

email companies that gave me job interview times: check

decline recent job offer for roppongi bar: check



hang out with tokyo people one last time: in progress




get ready to leave next week: yet to start











osaka......







here i come!!!!!!!!!!

go nz

today.

is new zealands second game in the world cup...


its very exciting.


they drew last time.

so happy.

but today its against italy.
eeeeek.



i wish them the best!!!!

i grew up watching my cousin play soccer. and some of these players too, i watched growing up.
so its exciting to see them do so well.


i have become increasingly bored with my time.
so aswell as watching fanstastic japanese dramas.

i am teaching my self to play the piano.
i lie

you tube is teaching me.

its very frustrating.


and i feel like i could quit at anystage,
but i havent yet,
which is a great achievement i feel.


i wanna go to the supermarket.
and buy some yoghurt. mmm.

but it seems like too much effort.
as i have to get changed etc.


except. i actually have to go. as i need to buy another bottle of juice or something.
as i make ice tea all the time (yumyum)
and there is nothing to put it in atm.

so its in a pot on the stove.

and i dont want to leave it unattended for anhour while i pop out.


you know....




anyways.


im going to osaka.


i have decided.
i would go now. but im waiting for ken to come to tokyo, so i can see him.

and kyle is also coming.

so it would be cool to see him too.


in other news. the curry i just ate was not nice.
and water melon does not keep.

i found out the hard way.


and i was saving it for a special time!!!!!!!!!
gahh.



yeah, its 6pm.

i should probably do something with my life today......



ciao

hello

i havent logged on here for a while.

and when i did.


i noticed more followers.




welcome children.


not much is happening here.
i dont think.


my indian restaurant job has finished as a job, and im now 'on call'

aka

they call me when they need me.




and just my luck.

they called me the one day i have plans

(and also the other day i had plans, but my phone was in the softbank store, so i didnt notice they called me 8 times.....)

right now i am in a jobhunt/eat/sleep phase.

its pretty much all i do.


ohh, and watch japanese dramas.

tehehe.

i, along with my friend rose, have turned into nocturnal creatures.

its slightly worrying.

although, she goes and explores with her friends. while i sit at home, and watch dramas.


boooooo.

haha.


i really wanted a straight perm.
and im hanging out for it.


asa i find a job.
im going for it.


(a bit silly to do it now, seeing as i have no income....)

last night, i went and had coffee with a girl i met 8 years ago.
her name is sayuri.

and she came to my highschool on an exchange.


it was crazy natsukashii.
especially as she brought photos with her.

ones of me when i dyed my hair blonde.
i forgot that existed.
slash.
was a VERY long time ago.

anyways.

im going to go make some breakfast. slash shower.

as its already 2.30pm.

gasp.

i really need to start going to bed earlier.


update me on lives please.


thats all.


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