i wonder who will read this...

my blog has slowly
slowly
slowly
sunken to the ground. maybe soon i will pick it back up.


and all will be merry.


right now.
things arent so.

i have lots of words to write in a day and a half.
but i cant express them.
i wish i could thing them, and they would be expressed on a page for me.



in better news.

darling comes in 10days





oh how ive waited to hug him.
to kiss him.
just to be with him

things are...

..better. slightly.

well. alot really.
i have stopped being so down. and now i am dealing with my auckland life.


contact with bf is everyday.
i guess he was having difficulty with it just like me.
but now we message and skype everyday...
and it makes me so happy to hear from him.
although, sometimes, it is unbearable to be parted from him.



i finally got internet at my house today!!!!!!!!!!! one month later.
having no internet for a month, is like, well. horrible?



uni is average. hard. really really hard. i have so much due already. and im way behind.... with the insane readings that my courses have allocated me.

but.

soon, i will be on top of it. (i hope).

i hardly see anyone, because transport is inconvenient.. and.
because. maybe i guess part of the reason is that i feel like friendships have changed slightly...

which isnt so great. but. yeah.


im still unemployed. which is again, not so great.
but im looking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




and, im sure you know. about the japan earthquake/tsunami/nuclear problem.....
its shit. but things happen.
i wish that they wouldnt. but they do.

thank you to everyone who contacted me to see if i was ok. and if my friends and bf and host family were ok.
i really appreciate it. and it touched my heart.


there are also at the moment, fundraising events happening around the university,
for example, tanabata festival, sausage sizzle, film evening, and selling mini crane badges.

so. please. get involved.


and help all the japanese people who are left with nothing after the recent disaster.



thanks.







well, homework calls.
i shall do it. and be bored.

auckland life.

im back in nz, and its less than ideal.


i hate university.

i have no job, therefore no money.

im stuck at home.

i have horrible uni hours.

my bf in japan does not contact me.
nor does he understand how hard it is to be seperated from him.



i hate it.


i want to go back.



















































i want to be happy.