re-colour

black.


im excited.





soon it will be back to normal...




work is taking over my life.

and i fear i will not see people before i leave.







two of my dear classmate friends have left for overseas already.


more to follow.


(including me)






japan

4days





FOUR

this is quite insane


im excited.

and also really scared.

and nervous!




tomorrow,
i get to pick up my passport from the embassy!


with the visa in it!!!
(i hope!!!!)




this is very very good news.


which means i go for atleast 6 months.



infact.
i have even purchased my ticket home.


12th of may.

get excited guys!



(except not too excited, because i hope to extend this to november)



i dont know how i am going to pack up my room in such a short amount of time.


i have far too many belongings.
its quite shocking.
and i cant part with any of them!


gasp.




i keep going to familiar places.

thinking i may see you there.


then i realise this is not possible.





as you are not here.

for hannah

hannah,
requested a blog.


sooooooo

here it is!

just pour you.




today,
mel
hannah
and rose all have an exam

zam
zam

zammm


the last of the last!



and then fun times to be hadd.




last night,
eleanor made me a delicious dinner.

it was amazzzing.
with beautiful decorative settings.


(roses, fairylights and candles)


i also had a few drinks with some familiar and some new faces.
added to the delightfulness of the evening.



today.
i am not at work
(YUSS).


and bumming round has been taken to a new level.


i must must must go to uni and the embassy.

must.

and get some new stockings.

ahhgrhr.


i love stockings.

looove.



this time next week will be the day before i go to japaaaaaaan.

wtf.





so sooon!!!

a sliver of freedom

have you ever heard me speak of how much i dislike the song
'party in the usa'?

mainy i think its the miley.



matthew hope
(from artisan guns)

did a cover of this.


AMAZING.


this is itttttttttttt.







anyways.
i like it.

which suprises me.



it actually doesnt.

because if he covered anything
its highly likely i would love.



i managaed to get myself the day off tomorrow.

which is good.

there is many things to do.



many many.

but how do you choose what gets priority.






work soon. boo.





i created a new blog
called
'delightfullywonderous'

where i post snippets of some lovely lyrics.
(and a video if it is to be found...)

sooo cheeeccckkkkkk it out.
its all linked to this page also.




last night.
hannah came over.

she brought with her lots of delicious treats.


and kept me company.

and that was really really nice.



i feel so verry verrrrrry bad.
as she was meant to be studying.

and she didnt get anything done.


(so thankyou for sharing the evening with me)







and also,
you.

youu.


yooooooouuuu.




your silence has pretty much ruined me.
so,

thankyou for that.

slightly scary

japan!




its so soon!!!


and i am freaking out slightly.


about it all.






mainly the visa thing.


and trying to see everyone before i go.



and do little things like pack etc


and clean up my flat
(which, at this stage will take me WEEKS).




i'm up early today!!

i set 3 alarms instead of the usual two.


and i set them early.

just incase i slept in.





i STILL havent made a trip to the supermarket.

so for breakfast again i am enjoying a delightful cup of water.



i could go to the supermarket as we speak.

but that would just be too practical.




i cant keep these eyes of mine open.



how am i going to stay awake for the 9hours of my shiiiift.
and then
party!!!



thats what id like to know....





i finally put some petrol in my car yest.

poor rufus had been without it for too long.





also,
in the last 35 mins
i have decided


that

somethings are just not worth thinking of.



even if it hurts to not think about it.




or if it hurts once you remember.






all in all


thoughts are gone.


for now atleast.





AHSHGHJDGLJJJDLSKX!

except they so arent!!


even now i just stopped writing.


and it was in the back of my mind.







this is going to be much harder than i thought.....

late

fock.






its 11.57



and i start work 2 minutes ago!!!









i cant believe i slept through my alarms.





again!!!!!!!!!



DHFGHZGFJLFNEWDJFKDFIRWNFMXI!!!




and i tried to have cereal for breakfast

and i only have a drop of milk.

and it was off.




and none of my flatemates have milk to borrow.



oh,
the sadness of life.


i also have no bread.


or anything really.




because i have had no free time.

because work has filled my life.



i finishes at 11.30 last night.

it almost killed me.





my phone is also about to run out of battery.


but i cant find my charger
boooo




and i NEED to put petrol into my car before work.


but i hate hate hate going to a petrol station without someone else there



its like a phobia i have....





but.

i must go to work.




ajhhgfgfsfdk.



lets PAR-TAY tonight though!

destination tokyo

yesterday evening

i went to clooney,

on sales st


with hannah and ties,
to have a drink with ties' cousin


ties also finished his exams yesterday.


so he understood the feeling of freedom...


haha.



i decided to celebrate. by purchasing a delicious cocktail


i open the menu,
and the first cocktail listed is


'destination tokyo'

like wholey crap.

so fitting.


needless to say,
i had to purchase.



wasnt as amazing as i had of hoped for.
but was still deliciously good.




we went to neighbourhood

matt and liam joined

and then to the dominion
to see mel

and she cheered me up with marshmallows!


so adorable she is.


then we all ventured back to my flat.
and had a cup of tea.



mmm
tea.




prior to this eventful evening,
hannah and i had niced hang time.


photos arent working...
(i think my card reader may be broken...)
GASP


and i dont recall where exactly the cord is.


tomorrow?
yes.



tomorrow.




i may go to sleep nowish.










work tomorrow.


boooo.





feel free to visit me.

i would actually really loves it.




lonely times work is.

continual thoughts

i wish things were simple



and
(people were)
easy to understand



although i know,

this would make life boring.




but

maybe things would work out better?


but then,
also maybe they wouldnt...









smile once more.

tell me i didnt ruin this......











it would ruin me